I think if my husband wakes up to find one more negative pregnancy test in the bathroom garbage, or if I have to disappointingly see one line instead of two one more time, we might lose our minds. I know, I know, we’ve only been actively trying for 2 months. As my husband explained to me before we even started trying: at our age (which isn’t very old, I might add) there’s only a 25% chance of getting pregnant in any given month. I freaked when I first heard that percentage. That’s not a big chance of getting pregnant at all! But I need to keep the reality of getting pregnant in mind; it’s not easy (or a quick process) making a baby.
Today I called my OB-GYN to schedule an appointment for my annual exam and to make sure everything is A-OK with my reproductive parts. When I was 13, I was already experiencing very heavy and painful menstrual cycles and I had a scope of my uterus done to check for endometriosis, but the scope came back negative for any signs of it. However, that was more than 10 years ago, and I’m scared that something might be wrong. Again, I know we’ve only been trying for 2 months, but I also haven’t had my period in 2 months, which is a first time thing for me. My periods always come within a two day window and stay around for 3-4 days, like clockwork. Anyways, my doctor wanted to make sure that I’m really not pregnant, so she ordered a blood test for me today, and I got myself all excited when she called with the results, only to be told what I already suspected: negative. But I have an appointment scheduled for next Friday to have my exam and to possibly do some blood tests if anything should appear abnormal. Hopefully everything checks out and my uterus is just being stubborn!
In August, my Mister and I will celebrate our 4th wedding anniversary. In that time, we’ve traveled to 3 other countries and 4 states, we have lived in 2 apartments and bought our first home, we have owned 4 dogs (one had to be put down due to a seizure disorder) and have successfully advocated for the pit bull breed, I have gotten my degree and my Mister is 1.5 semesters away from getting his, we’ve had medical and psychological traumas, emergencies and rough patches galore, and we’ve grown even deeper in love. All of this stuff reminds me that we’ve accomplished so much and are in a great place, and I know I’m ready for a new addition to our family!
I am not one of those people who needs pop. I need coffee, sure, but I don’t need pop. I like pop. I like the carbonation and how it makes your eyes water a little bit when you drink it. However, pop is one of the things I want to cut from my diet when I get pregnant, so I figured I might as well start now. I have always drank a lot of water; so much so, that I list “water” as my favorite non-alcoholic beverage. I also love chocolate milk, fruit/veggie juices, coffee (iced or hot), smoothies/protein shakes, and some teas. I have plenty of options to replace soda in my diet, and all of them will be healthier for me and my future baby.
I have already cut Mountain Dew from my diet because it contains Brominated Vegetable Oil, which is very bad for humans. But I have yet to cut Coke and Pepsi out, so that’s my next goal. Coke and Pepsi are the only pops I still drink and the carbonation and small amount of caffeine in them are what keep me hooked. I know I can do this, it’s just going to take some willpower on my part. So, here goes nothing!
I think I’ve officially become baby crazy. I can’t quit thinking about what my future baby might look or be like, what I’ll do with our nursery, what kind of mom I’ll be, and any other kind of thought you can have about babies and parenthood! My Mister is loving my craziness and thinks it’s adorable since I’ve been the captain of the Anti-Motherhood Team for the past 8.5 years and I’m finally excited about motherhood! I just wish I wasn’t so excited because that means every negative pregnancy test is that much more disappointing.
Yesterday I had a definite metallic taste in my mouth for about 5 hours. Today I’m feeling slightly nauseous, I’ve pretty much spent my entire workday in the bathroom peeing, I’m bloated/constipated, and I’ve had slight cramping. I also had an incredibly vivid dream last night! My body is trying to tell me something, but I don’t want to get my hopes up yet that it’s trying to tell me I’m pregnant!
I didn’t ever get my period in June (I was supposed to get it through the week of June 15th-19th) so I think this cycle has been all mixed up. I’ve been charting my cervical fluid and listening to my body, and I was starting to get discouraged when things didn’t add up. If my body was sticking to the standard 28 day cycle, I should have been fertile from June 27th-July 2nd. However, after charting my cervical fluid, I found that I had no fertile fluid whatsoever during those days and my cervix was low and firm (AKA pretty un-fertile). Since my scheduled ovulation time, I have continued to have creamy and sticky fluid until yesterday. In the afternoon yesterday, I felt very slight cramping for about 3 minutes. A few hours after the cramping, I found watery fluid, but my cervix was still low. The mister and I had sex last night just for good measure, even if I wasn’t ovulating. Then, today, I found watery/egg-white fluid and my cervix was so high and soft that I could barely find it. I’m hoping that this means I’m just ovulating late and that yesterday, today and tomorrow will be fertile days.
I sort of have a certain timeline that I can get pregnant during because the Mister and I are both in my brother-in-law’s wedding in May. If I don’t get pregnant this month, we have to wait until September to try again so I’m not having the baby while my brother-in-law is getting married! So here’s to hoping that I just unscrambled my mixed up cycle and I still have a chance to conceive this month!
Well, so far there is no positive pregnancy tests to speak of, but there is plenty of baby making going on. We have been trying since May 27 so it’s been barely over a month of trying. I have been charting my cervical mucus and when we have sex, and I’m attempting to pay attention to other physical signs my body is giving me as well. I have successfully cut my caffeine intake down to 1 cup of coffee per day, I’ve been eating really well and I’m getting at least 25 minutes of exercise every day. I’ve also been trying to live more stress free-ly. So, in the meantime, while we wait for a positive pregnancy test, I’ve been reading up on all things pregnancy, childbirth and child rearing! Here’s a few articles/blogs I’ve really enjoyed: